Four and Half Months

It is hard for me to believe Conrad is almost 5 months old already, I have been working on filling out his baby book and ordering pictures for it and some frames so going back over everything that has happened in the last four months.  I can't believe how much life has changed.  Yes sometimes I think how it was so much simpler when we didn't have a baby, I mean we could just sleep in if we wanted and go to the store without thinking about nap time and there is always that time at night when we can't decide if we should let Conrad sleep or try to wake him up so he will be tired for bed (lately he only sleeps about 3 hours at a time which is getting old - come on four and five hours). But I wouldn't change a thing. Conrad is so wonderful and I really can't help but kiss and cuddle him.

Conrad has grown so much, obviously, but he also just has so much personality, I know there is so much more to come, but I love his babbles and looks.  He loves jumping and bouncing and he has certain chew toys he likes best.  He giggles and is ticklish in his ribs, like me, and feet, like Kris.  In such a short amount of time he has to learn so much and his little body has to grown and develop so much, we are working on learning how to eat and giving him cereal and before we know it he will be rolling over.  He drools constantly and is always soaking wet I am sure he is working on teeth, but they are slow coming and I think will take a lot of time to come in.

Kris and I are doing pretty well with all of the changes.  I don't want to hurry this time in our life and know we will miss it and it wont be long and we will be looking back thinking to this stage but I think once Conrad can sit and play with his toys himself he will be a happier Boy, he wants so much to sot up and to be able to get what he wants; to put it in his mouth.  He is sitting on his own somewhat well he is fairly steady but definitely needs a hand right by his and some stabilization now and again.  It is the reaching things that gives him trouble he leans too far and can't move to what it is he wants. 

Our biggest trouble is that he doesn't sleep well, I have talked about this before of course from Kris and I's point of view, we would love more sleep and longer solid stints of it, but for him he just fights sleeping so much even when he is very tired that he stresses himself out.  If he would just give in to the calm and let go he would have so much more of a pleasant time.  He is definitely a happier boy when he gets good rest too.  I wish I could get a handle on what is really waking him, he seems to be wanting to eat every three hours, I have read and heard not to think eating cereal or food helps this, but then I have heard that it does too.  I have read about not going to them and getting them in the habit of being soothed or rocked by you when they wake so that they can put themselves back to sleep when they wake, but listening to him cry for an hour at 2 am is just not working very well, he gets so worked up it is unbearable.  I keep thinking it will all turn around soon, and all of this when really it is better now and the time to get him back to sleep isn't long really, it is just such interrupted sleep he isn't even getting that deep rest he needs.

Oh but the time flys by and in just a short time it will be six months already, I mean it was just a year ago when we went to the doctor and saw that first ultrasound with the little heart beat flutter that brought us to this moment with a baby that is the best of both Kris and I.

I tell him I love him many times a day.